Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Why is the world so mean and what can I do so my kids aren't?

          So lately I have been pondering a lot about the world and why it seems there are such an enormous amount of people who seem to have lost all ability to care about others.  I guess what spurred this was an article I read on CNN which was very upsetting about a gang rape video going viral. I won’t go into details but the fact that millions of people could sit down and watch that really disturbed me.  You never run out of articles about people’s cruelty now – especially to children.  Matt 24:12 “And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.” This statement perfectly describes the state of our world today.  But how did we get here?  How could people become so cruel, or have they always been this way?  I certainly know there have been periods of terrible cruelty (Roman times, the Middle Ages, the Mongols to name a few).  And I don’t want to sound ethnocentric but it does seem some cultures have more of a tradition of compassion than others.  Putting that aside, it seems to me that things are getting worse worldwide – there is a definite decrease in love evidenced by simple things like what types of shows are popular on TV (the Bachelor where women are mean and snotty to each other), to the most popular music (angry rap) the decrease in charitable giving, and even the animosity in politics.  So why? What is causing this? 
       As a mother of two young children my thoughts always go to what went wrong when these angry, unloving people were children – I don’t believe that people are just more naturally mean then they used to be.  I don’t claim to have the answers and certainly I have none for areas where parenting styles are different and cultures unique but I have observed American culture and parenting styles.  I do believe that because of the breakdown of the traditional family there is just less love and quality time to go around for kids which can lead to a lot of these negative outcomes.  Also, the amount of addictions in the world and violence causes a great deal of trauma to children which can lead to apathy for others.  However, I believe that even kids raised in two-parent families seem to be less loving and more self-centered.  It seems to me just looking at my own life that I had quite a shock after getting married and having kids realizing that life is not actually going to be about me, life is not actually going to be fun and happy and easy all the time – or even most of the time.  I remember feeling sort of sorry for myself that I went from a life devoted to creating my own fun to a life of taking care of demanding children.  Of course I love my kids and have so much fun with them but I also found myself feeling selfish thoughts about how little I was getting to do for myself.  I don’t want to deviate but it does seem that this idea that I have, and I believe children are growing up with today, the idea that life is for enjoyment and that we have a right to have our own happiness (separate from the happiness gained from service), is a route cause for all the lack of compassion and meanness in the world today.  I consider myself a relatively compassionate person, I am however also quite selfish.  As I went through this period of self-pity (I haven’t totally finished going through itJ) I noticed that I cared less about people, I didn’t feel the empathy and love for others that I used to.  I was too focused on my own desires.  (I actually have a great life and am very happy, I feel like this is making me seem depressed which isn’t true at all but at the same time motherhood has been an adjustment for me in many ways as I think it has been for many of my friends). 
So I guess what I am getting to is after realizing the great evil and lack of compassion found in the world I want to keep my kids from becoming self-focused, uncaring adults and I am trying to figure out how to do that.  I guess the three things I most want to give my children to be able to deal with the world they will live in is.  1) Empathy for others 2) Confidence and Leadership ability 3) The ability to create their own happiness
From listening to religious talks, to speaking with siblings, to reading parenting books here is a list of things I want to apply that I feel may help my children gain these qualities.  I am no expert and am not applying all these things yet but this is more a list for me to refer to occasionally to make sure I am trying to do it with my kids.
1.        Give my children the opportunity to serve others from a very young age – My older sisters have their children visit widows and they have had amazing experiences as they develop love and compassion for these women and feel the love they receive in return.  It is important for children to see others suffering, to put some perspective on life and start giving them an idea of what to expect in their own future – life is not always easy.  It was only after living in poverty-stricken Tanzania for four months that I started to develop a deep compassion for others because I started to put my own problems in perspective.
2.       Teach my children to express gratitude to others – I don’t want my children to expect to be treated kindly by others because it likely won’t happen a lot of the time, I do want them to recognize and appreciate when they are treated kindly so they are grateful and realize they want to treat others that way.  Kids from blessed households seem to have great expectations of what they deserve and they may be shocked as they get older when those same blessings are not forthcoming. 
3.       Create boundaries – If kids don’t have rules and work to do we are not preparing them to be adults.  Spoiled kids grown up will be much less able to deal with the trials of life.  If we think making our kids happy is for their own good we are wrong – of course you give your kids great experiences and a lot of love but giving in to their every wish is doing them no service and creating entitled and ungrateful children.  You simply cannot get excited about having cake if you have it every day – the more you give kids the less satisfied they will be with what you give them.  My daughter worries me because it seems if I give into her just once she remember is for weeks and weeks – I know particularly with her I have to be perfectly CONSISTENT.  I got her out of her bed a week ago to change her diaper and every night since then she wakes up at the same time and cries for up to three hours (not exaggerating).  Of course I want to go in and get her when she screams and I feel like I am a mean mom but if I give in then she will not learn and my life will return to what it was the first year of her life – a sleepless nightmare.  Kyla needs boundaries so badly – if I don’t create them for her she doesn’t have the ability to create any for herself.  Creating them is difficult and makes children and parents unhappy in the short term but much happier in the long term.
4.       Help my kids develop Confidence – I believe that some children are just more naturally confident than others and those kids you might not need to do much for…in fact you might need to try and reign in the confidence so it doesn’t turn to pride.  Other kids need something to lean for confidence – especially as they go through their teenage years.  Hopefully we can instill in our children the truth that they are Sons and Daughters of God and that should be their ultimate source of confidence.  However, I do believe that some children need external confidence. I was not the most spiritual teenage (still working on it) and I think it was important for me to feel confidence in other things.  I got this from having traveled a lot, getting good grades, etc…  Now this is a very fine line because you don’t want to praise your kids on these things too much or when their grades aren’t as good or when they stop traveling it can be devastating.  In fact I have read (Nuture Shock) that you shouldn’t praise kids at all for attributes (you are smart, you are fast) but instead for effort (you kept trying).  Give them opportunities to figure out for themselves that they can accomplish things on their own and can achieve great things.  I think immature teenagers sometimes need shallow things to help them feel like they are important and that they don’t need to rely on others – they are cool without following the cool crowd.  If my son or daughter worries me that they care too much about friends or are self-conscience I think I might want to put them in sports, or have them take a trip oversees, something to help develop themselves or put things in perspective.
5.       Teach my kids to lead not follow – My sister tells her kids every-day before they leave the house to remember that they are leaders not followers.  In today’s evil filled world sending my kids to school scares me to death.  I don’t think I could send them into that atmosphere without a confidence they can lead, not follow. I am not totally sure how to do that but I think as individual things happen and my children are faced with choices I hope I will sit down with them and be able to rely on the spirit to teach them about their divine nature and the importance of being an example.  I don’t necessarily want my kids to be student body president, I just mean I want my kids to be able to be an influence rather than be influenced.  I hope my husband and I can be an example of that to them.
6.       Face Trials and overcome moods – Creating your own happiness is so important and something my companion on my mission would say over and over “we create our own happiness”….I still haven’t mastered that one but I think hiding kids from trials and protecting them from unhappiness doesn’t prepare them for what is to come.  When my son is moody I tell him that it is his choice to be in this mood and he pray for help to get out of it.  I don’t know how well it works yet but I have read and seen that trying to make your kids happy and accommodate their moods is not teaching them coping skills.  Sometimes kids just need to be left alone and figure out how to get out and most importantly develop their relationship with their Savior to overcome their trials.  But I don’t allow my children to subject me and their family to their bad mood.  When I am in a bad mood I try to go in another room or go for a walk because I don’t feel like it is right to make everyone else miserable.   
Anyone these are just some ideas and thoughts I wanted to put down but I would appreciate any and all suggestions you may have on how to ensure our kids will be kind-hearted, confident, and happy in today’s mean-spirited world.


Monday, March 5, 2012

Happy Birthday to Calvin, 3!

His birthday present. A new bike, and for $10 on craigslist I can't complain about expense.

This is a nightly ritual, Moema climbs up the stairs with Calvin on his shoulders.

Calvin is obsessed with the color green so that was his theme for this birthday

I love my little boy so much and can't believe how time has flown. He is such a good boy with such a unique personality, I am so blessed to have him!

A tribute to my little girl Kyla

Monday, January 30, 2012

Baby #3 and Update on kids

I have not posted in awhile...I have had morning sickness which always make me refuse to do anything. We are excited for our baby #3 due in mid August! I wanted to write up a few things on Calvin and Kyla cause they are at such a cute age right now.


He loves:

-Being chased - He has loved being chased since he could first crawl and his passion for it doesn't seem to end. He begs me and Moema to race him about 300x a day and we can't really beat him anymore, he has the advantage cause he is small and can take the corners easier to block us out. It gets tiring sometimes but I like to give him a least a few races everyday - but it never seems to be enough for him:)

-Tackling his sister- another one that he seems to have been born with, his need to wrestle all those around him, luckily his sister loves it usually, unless it gets to rough.

-Cars, Trucks, Monster trucks, garbage trucks, cranes, anything that moves and makes noise.

He hates:

-When we get emotional at all, if we act like we want something too much he won't do it, or if we get angry at him or shout he just shuts down and will not give in. He is quite the stubborn boy and has an incredible amount of pride for a little 3 year old. If I tell him to say sorry to his sister in a harsh way he will NEVER do it, he would rather stay in his room all day long...but if I just say it like it isn't a big deal "please say sorry" then he will do it. Luckily he is a natured boy so we usually don't have to punish him for things. This aspect of his personality is helping me be more laid back and hold back on my anger, which are lessons I certainly needed to learn.

-Naps - since we took his paci away right before Christmas naps have become quite the struggle, I can sometimes get him to go down but I think he is outgrowing them now.


-She is left handed, I hope I can figure out how to raise a lefty but she certainly is. Moema hopes this may help her have an advantage is some sports.

-She is a much better sleeper of late, thanks to hours of making her cry it out and sticking to my guns.

-She Loves

-Mandarin oranges, she calls them "nanas" and is completely addicted. She has about 10 a day, I hope it wont' damage her but I guess it is better than loving cookies.

-Veggies, fruit...she is a great healthy eater.

-Opening things, destroying things, riding on her dad's back, being naked

She Hates

-When her hands are dirty

-Getting her hair de-tangled.

I love these kids so much and can't wait to meet the next one!


Wednesday, December 28, 2011

A great Christmas in New York

We had the best Christmas this year at my brother Taylor's house in Amawalk, NY. He has seven kids and we spent last year with them too, it is so fun to join in their traditions and just have a great couple days...Moema got to play a ton of sports and we went to Sherlock holmes...Calvin and Kyla love their cousins who are so nice to them. Fun was had by all.

A wonderful Christmas dinner with Taylor and family.
We had great treats in our stockings thanks to Taylor and Shelley, Kyla wasn't quite awake in this photo.

The Christmas tree and presents

With cousin Benjamin

Patiently waiting on the stairs to go see their presents

Playing with his new Garbage truck, he loves it!

With cousins, Kyla was the baby Jesus in the nativity scene

Christmas morning at Taylor's house

With cousins in their new pajamas

She loves her new kitchen but loves the candy canes more.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Holidays in Philly

Calvin just loves Moonbounce, and we got to go with a bunch of his church friends so it was extra fun!

Just enjoying some chocolate pretzels
Moema turned 27 on Dec 16th. I got him a watch and some sweat pants. We ate out at an Amish Smorgasbord for lunch, it was so good!
The two buddies

they love playing in the dryer, especially when I shut the door and let them hang out in the dark.
Kyla with her big winter coat...thanks to my friend Amy for letting us use it this winter!
Five years of marriage, we went to Longwood Gardens and saw the lights, it was cold but really fun! I am so lucky to be married to Moema, he really does make me so happy!